On the surface, I had everything going for me: a career in the Air Force, a desire to go todental school after finishing my dual degrees in psychology and Spanish, and a loving and supportive family.
Inwardly, however, I was struggling with self-deprecating thoughts about my value, my looks, and my purpose on Earth. These thoughts eventually escalated to the point where I contemplated self-harm and suicide. The physical strength I got when I started having suicidal thoughts scared me. I remember once when I was so frustrated with the world, I went to my bedroom, grabbed my phone and threw it hard against the wooden headboard of my bed that it shattered. I'm a small lady, I didn't know where that strength came from. That's when I knew the force that I could have, something bad was going to come from it.
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